"Let us celebrate the occasion with wine and sweet words" -Platus

IT'S MY NINETEENTH BIRTHDAY! HUZZAH!


New blue ankle boots, lunch with my mom, a movie and excellent italian food with great friends.
Along with accidently eating paper, birthday sex (not the god-awful song), the last episode of the Office (OMGOMGOMG)
And that was only yesterday! (that's what I like to call birthday pre-gaming)






As for today,
More birthday sex, celebrations, and probably a good deal of being far too high.
Also, AQUABATS AND BLINK182 CONCERT TONIGHT! Can I get a whut whut?

"In all matters of opinion, out adversaries are insane." -Wilde

Why am I constantly surrounded by people who are just batshit crazy?
Breathe breathe breathe breathe breathe.
I need calm, I need beauty, I need sanctuary.





she's my fall inspiration. Hopefully my hair will change colors for once.


The next dandelion I find, I'm wishing on it for some peace and quiet.
And maybe some extra cash, too.
It couldn't hurt.

"Anyone who lives within their means suffers from a lack of imagination."- Wilde

I've been so immersed in Oscar Wilde's stories lately. Especially his fairy tales.
Despite his hilarious eccentricities he's possibly the wisest out of the author's i've read.
So I'm running out of money which is a pretty big problem considering I physically cant go into a store and not buy anything.
This weekend I've spent about $60 on a shirt, sweater, movie, soup, and a book.
All very worth it, but it doesn't help my situation at all.
I'm just trying to find things to keep me calm.












Six days to my birthday, and I wish I were doing something better than dinner and a movie with friends.
Everything hails in comparison to my midnight tea party in the park last year.
19, any ideas?
Two weeks to portland!
Huzzah!

"She wore far too much rouge and not enough clothes." -Wilde

Oh, the awful things I'd do to go back to my old ways and the days where I'd be out every night of the week.
When I'd get all dolled up to go to sunset with a friend or two to some fancy french restaurant and pretend we were famous.
If only it were those lovely simple wreckless times when no matter how sober I was, I was never wearing half of my clothes in the middle of our artsy parties and to them it was just the usual.
I wasn't some fall from grace or anything as sudden as that.
It was just a long falling out of absolutely everyone from that beautiful, ethereal, hollywood-esque group of teenagers who couldn't handle their drinking or drugs or sex under wraps from the others.
We were the real-life Skins.
We were the brat-pack of 2006-2008.
And I miss the hell out of that.








My new obsession, Hark! A Vagrant's webcomic.


On a more humorous note, I'm pretty sure I'm getting carpel tunnel.

"Autumn is a second spring where every leaf is a flower" -Camus

I'm wishing it would hurry up and really be fall here.
I want to wear sweaters and cardigans and boots and layered dresses and all that.
Or be able to wear them without them being drenched through before I leave the house.
I normally don't go by these, but ALL of my horoscopes from magazines have said this month is going to be really great and i'll be busy, socially, which I hope to god is true considering how reclusive and depressed i have been the past month or two.
Come on fall!
Bring me cool air and love and happy moments!










All of this should be made much easier by me (HOPEFULLY) getting my license tomorrow, and my car soon!
I'm going to do so much aimless wandering.

"He enjoys true leisure who has time to improve his soul's estate" -Thoreau

Leisure and relaxation are the words of the week, which incidently, has been hectic.
There is nothing quite like a ciggarette, a book with old words, and some good french madelines in tea to calm the nerves at night and put you at perfect ease.
A lot of people say material possessions can't make you happy, but I respectfully disagree.
After tonight I've realized I need to be unattached for awhile and just breathe.
I'm hardly 19 (cough seventeen days till my birthday). I have the rest of my life to worry about things like work, school, and relationships. For now, I need to just float.



Unknown designer (if you know, please tell me!)

Christopher Kane SS10 Collection

Twenty8Twelve (Sienna/ Savannah Miller's collection!)

Unique SS10 Collection

Burberry Trench. FW09
First, let me acknowledge that I'm all of 5'4 and 100lbs.
Believe me when I say, i would FIGHT someone for that coat.







Oh, for a life in an old house where the rain shakes every window.
Where I could play dress up all day and climb onto the roof and look at the night.
Oh, for somewhere where you can see stars and the weather drops below 70f.

But most of all I long for that grimy dirty cold lonely city where it rains when it's not freezing into snow and the subway is warmer than your apartment in the winter.
I can even hardly fathom how much I miss that place.