Getting Myself Back.

I'm reading a lot more, writing a lot more, and drawing again.
Since I got my GED and left school halfway through senior year (because I wasn't learning anything new, I left, moved to New York for a month, and came home.) I've lost myself.
I lost my style, my will to read and draw, to be creative.
Today I taught myself to ride a bike and rode two miles to the library and got a card and five new books, which I will devour in their wonderful entirety, no short cuts.
I will finish writing the three novels and two movies I have never completed, and be satisfied with the outcome.
I will lose the fifteen pounds I gained in the past year, find thrift stores and re-develope a slightly classier version of my old, incredible, funky style, and I will be truly happy with myself for the first time in about six years.

And it will be wonderful.


I was so much cooler when I was sixteen.






Books:
The Invisible Man -HG Wells (about to begin)
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows-Rowling (half through)
Eat Pray Love- Gilbert (just begun)
The Stranger- Camus (to read)
Playing With Grown Ups- Dahl (to read)
Great Expectations- Dickens (to read)
Pygmy- Palahniuk (to read)
Unbearable Lightness of Being- (couldn't get into it, returned)

Lovliness and the Heat.

It's been at least 100 degrees out every day and my roommate and I are carless so we've taken up to marathons of Skins and Doctor Who, painting, reading, and running two miles every morning, resulting in my legs throbbing.
I'm half way through my most recent painting, part of a city series I'm doing.
Either later today or tomorrow I'm going to walk to nearby shops and change my style. Cassie from "Skins" and Keira Knightly type clothing is what I'm aiming for. The British have got it right.






Revision: Completed new painting.


Book Update:
The Unbearable Lightness of Being (Kundera) -it's alright.

All settled in.

I'm all moved into my new place, ikea furniture built, underwear folded, pantry stocked, and hair very red.
I've been applying for jobs the past few days (and am currently awaiting their replies) and this morning had no cash left for the bus, so missed my first day of college and was quite unable to crash the classes I wanted to get into, which is why I'm now home on a Monday morning, writing this.
If anyone knows of a bike I may buy in San Bernadino, CA, let me know.

(My new red hair,until two weeks ago I had towhead blonde my entire life)







And now: (I got the idea from dreamyfairytales, everyone should follow her blog.)

Un) Find a decently paying job, and save half of the money I make.
Deux) Lose ten pounds by my 20th birthday (slightly less than two months away)
Trois) Keep up and actually TRY (for once) to get good grades in college
Quatre) Become fluent in French

Book Update:
Murder at the Vicarage (Christie) -- two chapters to go.
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows --re-reading before the movie comes out
Unbearable Lightness of Being (Kundera) -- beginning tonight

xoxo

Moving On

The time has come to pack up once more and be on my way.
I had a tearful, nice last day at the salon, and my boss and two of the stylists gave me starbucks cards so I don't spend all of my rent money on coffee.
I'm physically and mentally exhausted, but today I'm going to finish both of my books, pack the rest of them, some clothes, and organize all my files/ notebooks/ important things before it gets too late.
Possibly Disneyland for my last day tomorrow, but nothing definite.